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Bedroom Redoubt

     REDOUBT At night I was learning to hold my own hand to quell my own shivering and, yes,to kiss my own lights. But too I needed sometimes a hand in mine heat supplied  by another shinning. But one night I felt Fear and Dread's touch each swift thrust into my soul. Gripped I was for half a night resolving not to run this time but to open wide to whatever might be inside indeed to welcome that bearing down  from without. I would feel fear that night unflinchingly and lay like dead china in the Anhwar night; still, quiet on dark display in my bedroom redoubt unmoving while fear crouched against my wall braced to leap and crush shattering myself prone and helpless in the solitary room. It slammed into my compliant soul as I lay  shuddering under heavy weight; but bravely did not fight; surrendering. Time, perhaps hours; convulsing mind body screeming; wracking senses emotions ringing; all progressed Dreads streaming onto the tiny stage of mind unclear; engulfed me, ButI would not relent. As long as it takes. I will live through this I said. Dread and Fear Panic and Anguish tore at me   each holding, in turn, it's sway. My only shield this  willingness to endure just to see  what was on the other side; a blend of subbornness and curiosity. In the twilight mist hours past and I still there endured each thrust and pary each shivering cusp until at long last in silence blending with Solice's touch it was done-- I with it and it with me. I'd survived, indeed, succeeded Fear, Anguish, Dread out, out, out my bed in this place I said, I run free. Stubbornness,I and Curiousity resolved to celebrate with good china and company. There is fear now, and it comes occasionally but I am afraid of fear no more nor it of me but the balance is better now because at the knock at the door I prepare for this company and pull out my China set.

Copyright © October 2002 lonnie hicks

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