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i think it happened to me i think something happened to me... i think he touched me... i think i was abused... Something did happen. he touched me. I WAS ABUSED. me. lil, yet big 'ol me. hurt, crushed, broken, damaged, destroyed, ruined, stained, poisoned... it isn't the shame. it's the fact that he chose me... why me? isn't that what we always ask? why me oh God? i think i touched him... i did. i touched him . . . down there. his special place, where he held his love for me. where his love poured out of him and into my mouth. where his love was his poison. i think i was molested... i think i wanted his attention... i think i wanted to be loved... i was molested. he was older. a midget, but older and in control. my reputation was on the line...not that i ever had one... he said they would all find out about me... did he know about daddy and me? i think i couldn't breathe... i was suffocating. my face pressed against the wet ground. the needles poking my body all over. but i couldn't get up... i couldn't breathe. i thought i was going to die... i think i did . . . but now . . . now i am trying to live in this dead body. how do i get out? will you help me? how do you begin to peal the layers away? but i am not sure i want your help... you might strip me and leave me for death... naked before all the world... you might beat me and taunt me as i lay there defenseless... will you hang me for my sins? will you punish me for the things i did not know WILL YOU PUNISH ME FOR THE THINGS I DID NOT KNOW? will you shun me because i did not see the forest for the trees? or will you love me? will you hold me and care about me? or will you suffocate me with your lustful desires? will you break me with your words of kindness and compassion? or ride me with your words of critique and doubt? will you train me to love even my darkest enemy? or teach me to accept even those who have hurt me most? perhaps...you will truly love me. unconditionally...the way it is supposed to be. but will i ever be able to know that love? perhaps...you will truly care about me. unconditionally...the way it is supposed to be. but how can i let you care if i don't care? how can i feel your love . . . when i can't even feel the pain anymore? you come with your light - only to walk away? or with illusionary promise to stay? what do you have to offer that i can trust? oh wait...you'll come back again? surely you must... oh damn, i've pushed you away... perhaps next time you'll say... or perhaps next time i'll let you stay.
grammatically incorrect lowercase intentional. the word "say" in the second to last line is intended word.
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