This Poem was Submitted By: Ellen K Lewis On Date: 2006-11-17 10:09:42 . . . Click Here To Mail this Poem to a Friend!

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This Evil Companion

Depression is an evil companion that never goes away. when l am happy l am blue and l can't help that l feel this way. I roll around in the muck and mallow l'm drowning myself in  shallow waters the deepest wells in my heart gone dry. Even my own tears defy me as they refuse to fall I can't seem to change things and my plans have all gone to hell. I shame myself with my own pity a party where no one else comes just as well I'm not feeling friendly I'm just a hollow shell.

Copyright © November 2006 Ellen K Lewis

Additional Notes:
I wrote this back in 95 after I suffered a brain trama and surgery. My depression is under control now. I look back to help me look forward. Thanks for reading!


This Poem was Critiqued By: Nancy Ann Hemsworth On Date: 2006-12-07 11:10:12
Critiquer Rating During Critique: 9.92308
I know this feeling and I am sure all do from time to time, even though not from the same circumstance as you, we all feel depressions in our lives. You have written this so that the reader understands your feelings so well with your examples."Even my own tears defy me as they refuse to fall" this has happened to me, and oh it is such a terrifying feeling when one can not even cry and release.


This Poem was Critiqued By: Claire H. Currier On Date: 2006-12-06 00:00:24
Critiquer Rating During Critique: 9.53333
Glad to hear you are looking forward as you take a look back in time; sharing with us feelings and emotional trama as you were struck with your brain trauma and the surgery that has helped you recover.... the read was good as the flow of words kept flowing.......bringing forth one image after another. Thank you for sharing with us a most difficult time. God Bless, Claire
This Poem was Critiqued By: Teresa Green On Date: 2006-12-03 20:07:45
Critiquer Rating During Critique: 10.00000
Hi Ellen, I can't help but identify with this portrait of depression. I have been there and know how it feels. I'm glad you were able to rise up from the depths. See how far you've come! That's awesome. I think when someone is depressed they tend to feel like they are the only one who is suffering this way. It helps to see that others have been there done that and this is the time of year people tend to suffer emotional stresses. Sooo....Your posting is timely in that regard. Title is intriguing. regards, Teresa
This Poem was Critiqued By: Mark Andrew Hislop On Date: 2006-11-29 16:30:50
Critiquer Rating During Critique: 10.00000
Hi Ellen This poem suggests a change of perspective about depression over the passage of time. There's almost a nursery rhyme quality to this that is quite disarming, something akin to "Ring a ring o'Rosies, A pocket full of posies, A-tishoo! A-tishoo! We all fall down" ... the child's seemingly flippant rhyme about the rather serious Black Death. Having been through depression, I know the territory. And because of that, I think this is an effective style in which to write about it. It's very hard to write about it while IN it without being hideously maudlin... ..which makes this a very refreshing change. Best wishes Mark
This Poem was Critiqued By: Dellena Rovito On Date: 2006-11-20 21:45:15
Critiquer Rating During Critique: 10.00000
Ellen, You have learned as I that misery must be allowed, felt, worked through, then gone. There are no short vuts. By writing your emotions, you acknowledge them and release them. You're right on. This writing shows the pain. You share and others realize they are not alone. And best off is you came out sane in the end. You are a tough gal for sure. my best dellena
This Poem was Critiqued By: marilyn terwilleger On Date: 2006-11-17 16:21:51
Critiquer Rating During Critique: 9.85714
Hi Ellen....this is such a melancholy poem but I'm glad you now have your depression under control. You worte this with so much emotion and because of that the sadness drips from the page. I was diagnosed with depression about a year after my husband died. Until then I just thought for sure I was dying. It manifested itself in so many physical problems and I had no idea it was depression. I finally gave up and went to the doctor because of severe chest pain. After all the tests were nornmal he told me I had a broken heart and that broken hearts really do hurt. So I know how bad you must have felt and I'm glad it resolved itself. This is a gut wrenching poem and one that is not easy to read for anyone who has been there. Very well done. Blessings....Marilyn
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