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From A Non-Entity Beside you I feel as a cast out stranger Not as the child of who you gave birth I watch you in silence as you ignore me Treating me as a person with little worth When your gaze looks upon my being All I see is total disgust in your eyes If you brush against me or I embrace you There is an aversion you just can't disguise What have I done to receive your judgment? You, who others praise , has a golden heart Explain to me, please, how this shows you love me Where in concern does revulsion take a part? ~ As a child my life was filled with loneliness Trying to ignore laughs and jeers behind hands Sitting alone upon the school steps, hiding Feeling there was no one who could understand I searched for something I could excel in That which would bring me into the crowd The one thing I could claim as my own Something that would make you proud But when I discovered within, that treasure The praise was so limited, I didn't understand My flaws and looks were the focus of discussion For you see a fat child was never part of your plan ~ Now as an adult, I'm still treated as that child You still are trying to control and change me All buried in the pretense of love and caring But the driving power of guilt, is what I see I don't need your guilt placed upon me Believe me, I have enough of my own Constantly feeling I am a total failure For once let me be in control! Don't go behind my back using my family Trying to shed your guilt by changing who I am I am who I am, but for you that isn't good enough Because I don't fit into your perfect plan ~ Because I'm overweight do you think I don't feel? Do you think the layers have caused me to go numb? My self esteem has been pulverized and strangled I don't need to be treated like I'm dumb! The world looks upon me in total disgust Laughing and snickering, I pretend I don't hear After all fat people are scum, a non-entity So why should anyone, even you, really care I'm told by all around to 'Just change it' But it is hard to change, if I have no worth I don't expect the world to solve my problems But being treated as a human being sure wouldn't hurt |
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